50 Things You're Good At

This is an exercise my friend had me do to help with a low I've hit.  It's simple, list 50 things you are good at or know how to do or have no matter how ridiculous or insignificant they may seem.  He helped me get started.  Here's my list of things I am good at:

1.  I know how to make kalbi
2.  I am good at my job.
3.  I know how to keep calm.
4.  I know how do do fries.
5.  I know how to take accurate orders.
6.  I am good at packaging things the right way.
7.  I am good at cleaning really well.
8.  I have a pretty smile.
9.  I have pretty eyes.
10.  I'm good at my hair.

11.  I have good taste in clothes.
12.  I'm good at counting.
13.  I'm good at being troublesome in a good way.
14.  I'm good at writing in cursive.
15.  I'm good at remembering my dreams.
16.  I'm good at doing my make-up (most days).
17.  I'm good at hiding my emotions - p-p-poker face!
18.  I'm good at reading.
19.  I'm good at imagining things.
20.  I'm good at remembering annoying details.

21.  I'm good at worshiping Yoshis.
22.  I'm good at seeking help.
23.  I'm good at improving myself.
24.  I'm good at thinking.
25.  I'm good at doing the dishes.
26.  I know how to fill drinks.
27.  I'm good at being nice.
28.  I'm good at not giving up.
29.  I'm good at hiding.
30.  I'm good at being a cat.

31.  I'm good at some naughty things.
32.  I'm good at keeping the apartment clean.
33.  I'm good at being resourceful.
34.  I'm good at surviving.
35.  I'm good at being strong enough to not hurt myself.
36.  I'm good at getting mad.
37.  I'm good at eating.
38.  I'm good at solving problems.
39.  I'm good at finding things.
40.  I'm good at seeing stories.

41.  I'm good at being attentive.
42.  I'm good at being selfish.
43.  I'm better at communicating my thoughts and feelings.
44.  I'm good at making tea.
45.  I'm good at being me.
46.  I'm good at loving people.
47.  I'm good at decorating.
48.  I'm good at describing things.
49.  I'm good at reading.
50.  I'm good at drawing.

51.  I'm good at being alive.

Now that I've come down a little from my freakiness and have come to regret some things that I said to my friend. 

You will say some hurtful things some time.  I did.  I deeply regret them and apologized many times over.  You might not think about them because you are hurting, you can't see past yourself at the moment, but my friend is right, "The world doesn't revolve around you," and though that really sucks to hear because you are at such a lowpoint, when you poke your head around that outside of your realm is the reality of everyone else and their own little worlds.  Those worlds sometimes collide or intersect and really beautiful or catastrophic things happen.  But know that you are responsible for what you put into the world, intentionally or not.  These might sound a bit harsh, they really are, but it's something to own up to. 
     If you excuse me I need to devour some of the pie I made. 

If Someone Asks for You

If someone says to you, "I really need a friend to talk to, do you have time?"  DO NOT, under any circumstance bring another person!  This might sound like common sense but let me cement this in a little more:  This is code for "You are the only person who I can talk to about this, please help me".  It doesn't mean bring someone - even if that other person is on amicable terms.  They only want to talk to you because of whatever reason including they feel close to you and feel like they can intimate knowledge of their life to you.  This is a deeply personal matter that can't be discussed with anyone else.  It's not a stab at someone they just need you.
     It is a precious thing to ask of you your time but nonetheless they asked.  It's hard to admit you need help and even if you are scared because you are not sure you can handle that or deal with them, it's going to be all right.  For the most part a lot of the time, people are happy you are there to listen in general.  If you are scared you might not say the right thing just say so.  It might suck to hear that if we are asking for advice but it lets us know that you are human too and that you might not have the answers - all we need to know is that you support us. 

I'm a little buzzed.  But you know, I really needed a friend tonight.  And I was sad because the friend I could talk to brought someone else.  I didn't get to talk about the things I needed to talk about.

Today is Monday

Arrived, after receiving a ride from a coworker, a supervisor.  Apartment smells awful, like carcasses rotting.  Instantly run to the trashcan, the trashcan that was almost full before I left for work, before my roommate left for work.  Why had not my roommate thought to take the trash?  Odd.  Peculiar.  He's not very good at being a housemate though he's a wonderful friend.

Pass the kitty taking out the garbage and find the mail.  Nothing for me.

Prepped some bananas for some vegan ice cream.  Whipped some coconut oil for body butter and placed in the fridge to stay firm.  Ran enough through hair to saturate - should combat some of the damage.  Ideas of bleaching hair tomorrow return.

Thirsty.  Terribly thirsty.  Water tastes so good on the back of my throat.  Hugh Laurie on the tele kidnapping puppies.